I think if anyone stepped in my shoes for a day once they got back to their shoes they Either change third life or kill themselves.

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Union square. On the steps. It’s like when I was alone in NYC so long ago. It’s this I missed. The open opportunity. The endless possibilities. Sometimes friends are obstacles holding you back. Sometimes it’s not till you burn them that you can escape. I did love Chris like a brother but I never have […]

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Did I make myself sad by pleasing myself all day or did I please because I felt sad. Considering I think it’s the action.

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I see her smile in my closed eyes. Trying to enjoy the experience. Not the loss. Still questioning. Lonleyness seems to reach us all in age. I hope to look into her real eyes again. Maybe the burn will teach me this next years lesson.

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Angry angry all the time and no drive to do anything about it. I have become what I hate.

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This is a part of my life where I accept the sadness. It’s part of the ebb and flow of emotions. Without the sad how can one be as happy.

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Not sure what to think on a night like tonight. Salume comes to mind. I have been a huge slut this month and loving it. Miss her tho. Miss myself….

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Most people die far before 25. It’s true they just don’t get buried till 75. My adventures shall never stop. My brain won’t allow it. It wants to much. Determined, focused and motivated, I am a hammer an awesome vessel for my genes enjoying the ride.

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I may never change. I am the perfect smiling monster. While its a pleasure to meet me, it’s a nightmare to know the other side.

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I have been with more women then I ever have in the last month. Love being off Adderall.

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